A feeling…
I’m feeling down again. Having all this wedding stuff surrounding me is making things hard for me.
Now, I don’t even know if I want to marry the guy I’m with. Not that he will ever ask me…To him, I’m just a girl to have around. I feel like I put more effort in this relationship than he. Which is pretty normal for me.
Everyone is posting pics of babies, pregnancies, weddings and engagements. I can’t even get a guy to fall in love with me.
Even if i ever did have a wedding, I’d have no one to be on it for the bridesmaids. Along with relationships, I’m terrible with friendships.
The above are why I don’t want to be alive. I wish I could just…. die. I just want my heart to stop- that’s it. Simple.
Life is torture especially when you’re all alone.
So many people wouldn’t understand so I can’t talk to anyone.
I really do I hate my life. I hate myself. I can’t wait until I am no longer on this earth.
